I grew up so much during this 7 months, and I know that now I have to let go, the moment when I discover the 3rd time you lied, and to the extend you even deleted her conversation, I snapped.

Life is always difficult we always vexed on things, like family, love, work.
I can't seem to make a choice.

Today I feel ever so vulnerable.

Great Translation :)


Only piano is left here and it spent a whole day talking with me. The cello that's been sleeping is silent and worn. I think you have made it very clear (for me) to understand. I am aware 
and know too that there is no reluctance in you

You said that you will feel completely broken-heart too, but i don't believe it. Though i used to hold your hands and you spent time 
with me, it was all history.

I really hope that he really loves you more than i ( still) do, only then can i force myself to leave you


Reff:

You want a farewell, but i simply do not want to end this relationship. Why do you expect me to be smiling and pretend like nothing
has happened? I don't have a talent like this, embracing you and accepting him. Don't worry too much about me, I'll survive and live well.

You are very far away from me now, and i will also slowly walk away (from your life). Why do i even let you to choose how and when we break up ?
I really have no talent , I can't soothe (be in silence) that quick. I will learn to give you up and that is because I love you so.

Feelings are just like poison,
it slowly sink in and poison you deeper bit by bit.

You can even change your own life just to revolve around the person,
or make someone change theirs.

But is it worth it?
Is it worth it to lose all your friends, your school grades, your job, your family.
Just for that so called special one?

The answer I learn from so much failed relationship, is it's not worth it.



Maybe someday I'll find someone who make me feel that it's worth it again.

I think this really my first post in many months,
those fights we had, those arguments we had.

I will just burst into outbreak without putting myself into your shoes,
I just rip pieces of paper into shreds to show my displeasure.
I'm childish, seriously sometimes I do wonder what you actually love bout me.

I'm not pretty nor beautiful, I don't have the best complexion, results nor temper.
Time and time I made mistakes.
You said I was a good liar, I lied, I'm sorry.

Do you know how hard it is to even write on my blog about this, I'm someone who rarely confess my sins on blog, even when I blog I would omit details of the argument to make people feel I'm the victim.

I think I have grown alot through my relationship with you.
Even if we don't end up happily ever after, I know I have tried to make it up to you.
And make you feel love and trust me again.

Sometimes you have to cast aside your pride and apologize although you feel that you are not at fault, but because certain factors, perhaps your mom, your dad, your bf, your gf you have to do it.

Sometimes you have to cast aside your pride, and apologize even if you know that your family, your love ones will always give in to you, but everyone has a limit.

So your pride or love?